Hi all,
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Some of you know me well on here and some of you don’t, I tend to be the positive person on the match day threads and the draft area.
Onto what this is really about...
All honesty I feel like my life is going nowhere expect downhill. No matter how hard I try it feels it’s going no where and I feel my issues and things I’ve raised haven’t been taken into account how I feel. My depression and anxiety has hit me really and I’ve just been signed off work on sick due to my mental health. I feel I am letting my family down, friends and myself. I look forward to every Sunday as that’s when my boys play and I feel happy again, sad isn’t it?
Work life -
I work for the government in the defence industry and I’m finding it very hard to cope with some colleagues and today I got pulled away from my team and was addressed with an unformal warning about what I was saying over Skype for Business. Basically I said I hate my team and find it really hard at times and I don’t like a team member what so ever and how she address me and how she talks to me.
Sorry for such a negative and downhearted post. Just needed somewhere to let this all out.
Thank you for those who have read this really do appreciate it.
Thanks for sharing. You actually do a world of good for others by doing so - so take heart from that at the very least!
And sometimes it helps just to write it out - or to say it out loud - which is why more people should consider good routine counseling/therapy sessions.
But overall, your version of "depression" is pretty common in our Culture. And with good reason.
Most people have this underlying feeling that this "way we live" isn't healthy or sustainable, although for most it's a subconscious feeling that things aren't "right" and we've got a helluva mess on our hands now and into the future.
You/they/we/I - aren't wrong.
Bear in mind we're in the midst (or perhaps, near the end) of a 10,000 year long cultural tangent.
We as humans - just as "intelligent" then as we are today - lived very successfully, sustainably, with what archaeologists have discovered was a pretty high quality of life, despite our CURRENT Culture's slandering of Mankind's previous 100,000 years of living sustainably, as "cave men"
There ARE other ways of living - there ARE ways of breaking out of the rat race - or as a first step, just recognizing the scope of the rat race we're in, just to remind yourself that "no - you're not crazy" for feeling strongly that something ain't right with the direction our culture and species are taking
A good simple, thought provoking read (that actually dates back 25 years now) on these notions - should any of them resonate with you.
Ishmael (novel) - Wikipedia
All that being said, sometimes we do have to suck it up and play the current "game" by the rules this warped "Culture" sets. But that's much more tolerable if one can see the bigger picture while hoping the Human Race can collectively "evolve"
If you're in the mood for a movie that hits on some of these themes, rent Tom Shadyac's "I Am" movie. In some ways it's tough to watch but it's a great reminder of what's wrong with this world (i.e the title "I Am") but also what's RIGHT with this world (i.e. the title "I Am")
It's done in an entertaining way by the director of "Ace Ventura" no less!
Any who - that's just my "take" on what you've expressed as I feel it myself and hear it among so many others. Good luck!